Professional development at the cost of a 'spiritual awakening'
Dealing with demons
When I took the gamble to quit the typical 9 to 5, I was of course focusing on the opportunity to plan, produce and host fantastic events around the world and build a communications campaign. I was preoccupied with notion of travel and adventure. I knew it would be tough but it would make for an incredible experience.
What I didn't account for were those in between days, the 'normal' days. The days where you update the website, draft the next concept note, research future partners, prepare some tweets, arrange meetings and catch up with your finances. These days I find the hardest.
I had left behind the world of imposed structure. Of roles, boundaries, hierarchy and corporate culture. I'd left behind the typical notion of work colleagues and team mates. I was lucky to have autonomy in my previous roles but this was pushing it to the extreme.
Who was really going to know if I was making progress on my to do list? Who was going to tell me I had done a good job today? When was enough enough? Was I good enough?
Whatever the reason, I soon realised pinning my self worth entirely to another person's view of my work is not sustainable.
So I went back to the wellbeing drawing board and I am still on that journey.
On the off chance that my sentiments resonate with someone else, I thought I would share some information on the two people, in particular, who have been instrumental in my personal growth - phase two.
Andy Puddicombe of Headspace - his dulcet tones pumped straight into my ear canal to help me stay in the present and be mindful
And Brené Brown aka vulnerability TED - her talks and words on vulnerability is challenging me to the core but I know she's right. Embracing vulnerability personally and professionally will only lead to a more rewarding and worthy life.
Take some time out in a comfortable environment, allow an hour